Do you ever have those kind of days when you wake up and you feel you do not have enough strength to take on the world?
On these days you feel you just want to turn over in your bed and go back to sleep. You do not have the energy to take on that big project that is pressing or you have a fear of opening the mail just in case there is a big bill to pay that you forgot about.
Well, today I think I’m having one of those days. It is a weird feeling but you go to bed thinking you can take on the world and you wake up feeling like a complete loser! Nothing has happened in between, just a rush of thoughts going through your head that conjure up the feelings of being overwhelmed.
Since starting the journey to becoming a church planter, I have been amazed at how many battles I have had to fight. Whether inner battles or battles with other people. However, I feel like God has given me an injection of some extra strength faith. I have had the feelings that I can take on any mountain that maybe in my way. I think I am getting a glimpse of what the little shepherd boy David felt when he faced the giant Goliath. I think inside of him he must have said, ‘Bring it on!’ I can relate!
So it is on days like these when no obstacle has been put in my way, no big huge giant has tried to fight me, not even a bill has come in the mail that I can’t pay, in which I realize my humanity. There is no reason for me to feel overwhelmed yet I do. There is no reason for me wanting to bury my head in the sand, yet I do and there is no reason to feel weak, yet I do!
I think God allows days like this so we realize who we really are. We are just insignificant people who have been given the priviledge to serve and love a GREAT God. It’s days like these that I realize I can not walk this journey alone, I can not take on a giant alone, I can not conquer a mountain alone. It’s days like these that I realize I am not equipped for the challenges ahead, but I know a friend that sticks closer than a brother who is equipped and stands by me when the biggest mountains or the biggest giants are right in front of me.
My prayer today is the message found in Proverbs 3:5-6. ‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.’